Break out and live life

All before I realized

Things changed

All before I guessed

things appeared

Was it destiny?

Unable to drop my tears or even smile

I lay there like a log

dreams swept away

vision faded

All I had to do was accept it

let it overpower me 

I relaxed the thought

letting it creep into me

Finally, it cloaked me

I lay in it for the deep slumber

the slumber from which I do not want to be awake

In my sleep, I dreamt of many things

a pain was encompassing my body

Unable to raise my voice, I lay there and struggled 

One day, a light cracked into my cloak

awakening me from the deep sleep

there was something new in me

a foreign piece of me, that was fluttering

fluttering and playing with the breeze

I opened my eyes to see the beauty of it

Puzzled me, unable to decide what I was supposed to do

let it play its own game 

with a wiggle, I lift myself from the cloak…

there It was me in the air,  tumbling up and down in the air

fiddling myself to balance

another breeze came in inviting me lifting me ahead

Slowly I gained a balance in the new life

landing on every flower petal I could find

the past life vanished away and I was in the air floating.

 

 

 

I choose my life…​

Define me, As I am

Save me, As I am

Do not sway me for your own purpose

I want to be like the wind 

influencing everything it touched

I do not want to be the air that is caged in the jar

just to fill your emptiness

I want a life, that is not yours

I want a life, that is mine

A life that accepts me as a whole 

with all my deformities and craziness

Let me choose the one, that is mine not yours

A life that lets me paint myself it 

A life that I want to embark upon 

to enjoy the true wisdom of living. 

 

Anticipation

I waited to be chosen

Overlooking those eyes to look at me

look at me with all the love I wanted

Every time I waited, patiently

the eyes just turned away

my silent calls went unheard

yet I waited..

waited for the moment to be heard by

I was in the crowd, not far away

not very close though

All I just needed was a hand of love and hope

For it I waited …waited as long as I can

with an anticipating soul

overlooking the sky … the sun and the moon visiting routinely

Finally, the hands arrived, but it was just rotten me in the end

All the eyes did, discard me away into the trash…

Heart-broken me lay low in the sand, decaying and decomposing

finally dissolving into the sand. 

 

 

Unable to Choose….

At the edge of the cliff

I stood with one foot feeling the air

The other feeling the safety of the land

All I could see is the vast nature that was calling me

inviting me to its bed of love

The other one was the land nourished and watered

I was living at the edge of it

A small step either saves me

A small step lets me fall

Dangling in between the choices 

I stood there silently watching the nature

I let myself loose, to be chosen by nature itself

Dilemma of choosing the right was torturing me

I felt like a bird, learning to fly 

who stood there waiting to understand what is best for it

Finally like the bird took a flight, the sky became its home 

For me, I stood amazed by the overwhelming beauty of the world around me

Unable to choose… Unable to fly… Unable to walk away.