Make peace with my pain

Sealing my eyes,
I did try to make peace with my pain.
The pain just started to accumulate in me.
I prayed hard,
Not to break away from my shell.
The pain of being away from you,
Hurts me much more,
More than i ever could imagine.
I am holding up everything,
Mounting every pain on top of another.
My eyes flooded with emotions…
But i know, i shall not shed my tears.
Never let my pain take over me.
I do not wanna be away from you anymore,
all i need is you….
So i keep peace with my pain…
Letting it engulf me,
Agonizing every inch of me.
Until i know, the moment
When i can fall into your arms.
Embrace you and forget the pain.
With you peck on my forehead.
Until then,
I contain it within me.
And my smile conceals it.
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TheChaoticPoetess
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I wish I knew…

I wish i knew.
That its ok to be imperfect.
It’s okay to be angry.
It’s okay to fail.
It’s ok to fall ….but get up again.

I wish i knew, that there are no perfect moms.
I wish i knew, that i could fail as a mom..and learn again…
I wish i knew, that i can be vulnerable…
I wish i knew, i could dream.

I wish i knew i could be as messy as i am.
I wish i knew that it was ok to be single…
I wish i knew, i could be unsuccessful…
I wish i knew i could move on even with a heart block.
I wish i knew i could be depressed and not judged.
I wish i knew, i could cry openly.
I wish i knew that i could get angry.
I wish I knew, I could learn from mistakes…
I wish I knew, that I can be beautiful in my way…
I wish i knew it was ok to be fat.
I wish i knew it was ok to be who i am.
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TheChaoticPoetess
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Running away from the bustling city

As the world is,
Bustling away in front of my eyes.
As if there is no time to wait.
I stood there,
Awaiting my memories to accumulate in my mind…
To free me from these shackles of expectations.
To take me back to those moments, which my heart craves for more.
The moments which are imprinted in my soul.
The hustle and bustle of the world around me.. Fails to impress me.
As I began to travel to my past every moment of my life.
Familiarity is what I craved.
But all I was gifted was an unfamiliar world.
Which is promising me something…
Which takes me to take a step away.
Away from what I have been so far.
I shut my eyes,
When waves collide my eyelids.
To calm the storms that rage within me…
Confronting my soul,
I decide that I need to be stronger…
Stronger than I ever expected.
To move ahead…and not move on.
Because that is what I am.
I carry a piece of everything, I am forever…
As I know that, the ones meant for me,
Will never part ways with me.
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TheChaoticPoetess
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My safe heaven

Safe heaven,
That is what you are for me.
At the same time,
My excitement factor.
You enthrall me.
In every touch and caress.
Like you melt me in every way.
Even in the way you look at me…
I love the warmth you shed upon me.
Engulfing my emotions and setting them to sail along with yours.
We dance making love…
Like swirling along with the harmony of the wind.
And our bodies, functioning each other. Igniting the passion that’s arousing.
On my lips.
Pouring from my eyes.
Which you savour from my lips.
We dance along..like magnets.
In a Never ending rhythm…
Until we fell asleep.
In each other’s arms.
Only to wake up in each other’s arms..forever.
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TheChaoticPoetess
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Finding her, after She lost her

Most women on getting married lose a piece of her and gradually with days counting she loses herself and becomes a manual guide which contains only data fed by the family into which she has moved into. 
And the guide contains the facts like.

Forget your family…this is your new home.
Forget what you studied, learn to do things in a new way.
Forget what you have been earlier …that doesn’t matter to us.
You wanna go to your home, oh that’s impossible…
You wanna go to your home, you need your husband’s family’s permission.
Always prioritize your husband’s family and not yours.
You are a guest at both your parent’s home and your husband’s home.
You have to ask your husband, even before you step out.
You stay home and take care of your husband’s family.
You can go to work, but I won’t be helping you with any things. Your job depends on how you manage.
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Crap and nonsense fed to the minds like these ruin society.  Where is a healthy relationship here? One has to sacrifice so much for just another person.

Women, if you want to find yourself, be bold, strong and independent. Strangely saving her is the toughest task she has to go through. Be who you are no matter none supports you. This is why a woman has to be independent and strong.
It is hard, but not impossible.


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