Unheard child

She sat,
waiting,
days passed, weeks passed, years passed;
waiting for her to appreciate her,
just wondering why she is never being loved for her flaws;
she waited, but its just time, that swept by;
leaving her being unnoticed by her;
she loved her, sacrificed everything for her;
but all she recieived was just denial;
she felt she was unseen;
she felt she was unheard;
her life seemed emptier, even when she claimed to be on her side;
why is she being left inaudible,
does she fear, that she is stealing away her thunder;
but why would she ever do that;
when all she admires is her;
all she needs is to be heard, to be seen.
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Soulrecitals
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കാത്തിരിപ്പു നിനക്കായി

എത്ര കാലം കടന്നു പോയാലും
നിന്റെ  ഓർമകൾ എന്നിൽ നിന്നും മായാതിരിക്കും
തടസ്സങ്ങൾ എത്ര തന്നെ വന്നാലും
നീ എന്റെ മനസ്സിന്റെ ഒരു കോണിൽ കാണും..
നീ എന്നെ മറന്നാലും,
ഞാൻ നിന്റെ ഓർമകളിൽ ജീവിക്കുന്നു
നിന്റെ ആ കണ്ണുകളിൽ അന്ന് കണ്ട തിളക്കം ഇന്നില്ലെങ്കിലും
ഞാൻ നിനക്കായി തിളങ്ങിനിൽക്കും
പാതിവഴിയിൽ മറന്നു പോയെങ്കിലും
എവിടെയോ നീ എന്നെ കണ്ടുമുട്ടും എന്നുള്ള വിശ്വാസത്തിൽ ഞാൻ എന്റെ യാത്ര തുടർന്നുകൊണ്ടേയിരിക്കും…
ജീവന്റെ അംശം ഉള്ളടത്തോളം,
നീ എനിക്കായ്‌  എവിടെയെങ്കിലും കാത്തുനിൽക്കും എന്ന് വിശ്വസിച്ചു പോന്നവൾ ആണ് ഞാൻ
എന്റെ എല്ലാ വഴിതിരുവുകളും നിന്നിലേക്കുള്ള യാത്ര എന്നാണ് ഞാൻ കരുതുന്നത്…
നിനക്കായി എന്നും ഞാൻ കാത്തിരിക്കും…

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#soulrecitals #thechaoticpoetess #waiting #malayalamamateurwriter #malayalamtypography #malayalamwriting #wait #waitforhim #lovepartways

Death bed

Life is soo short.
When you are on your deathbed, you realize that you have lost every moment you wished you had done this, instead of that.
There we lie, unconsciously watching people looking upon us, lying dead, unable to move even the tip of our finger. Everything froze, slowly taking away a piece of us from the world we created until then.
People around us, shedding tears for us, but are they crying for losing us, or for the monotony of shelter we offered them? The name, or relation we build eventually until i am on my deathbed.
See, it’s all temporary. Dont lie there dead thinking these, instead, take a glimpse of how brave you were, how much you accomplished and how much you were loved.
Dont die before you are on that deathbed.
Be alive, feel alive.
Let’s live and let others live.

#randomthoughts
#lifequotes #lifeisnevereasy #deathbedthoughhts

Make peace with my pain

Sealing my eyes,
I did try to make peace with my pain.
The pain just started to accumulate in me.
I prayed hard,
Not to break away from my shell.
The pain of being away from you,
Hurts me much more,
More than i ever could imagine.
I am holding up everything,
Mounting every pain on top of another.
My eyes flooded with emotions…
But i know, i shall not shed my tears.
Never let my pain take over me.
I do not wanna be away from you anymore,
all i need is you….
So i keep peace with my pain…
Letting it engulf me,
Agonizing every inch of me.
Until i know, the moment
When i can fall into your arms.
Embrace you and forget the pain.
With you peck on my forehead.
Until then,
I contain it within me.
And my smile conceals it.
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TheChaoticPoetess
#thechaoticpoetess #poemsonlove #truelove #paininlove #loveandpain #makepeacewithpain #love #loveheals

I wish I knew…

I wish i knew.
That its ok to be imperfect.
It’s okay to be angry.
It’s okay to fail.
It’s ok to fall ….but get up again.

I wish i knew, that there are no perfect moms.
I wish i knew, that i could fail as a mom..and learn again…
I wish i knew, that i can be vulnerable…
I wish i knew, i could dream.

I wish i knew i could be as messy as i am.
I wish i knew that it was ok to be single…
I wish i knew, i could be unsuccessful…
I wish i knew i could move on even with a heart block.
I wish i knew i could be depressed and not judged.
I wish i knew, i could cry openly.
I wish i knew that i could get angry.
I wish I knew, I could learn from mistakes…
I wish I knew, that I can be beautiful in my way…
I wish i knew it was ok to be fat.
I wish i knew it was ok to be who i am.
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TheChaoticPoetess
#thechaoticpoetess #iwishicould #iwishiknew #beingme #beingme #beingfat