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Messages you sent

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As it dawns,

I opened my eyes;

not to break my dreams,

wishing, that you were near me

cuddling as in my dreams.

every day would be heaven for me

in your arms, that desired me the most

your feather touch is the one I longed every second

at nights, wherein I trod lonely

even the whispers of the wind teased me

with your name.

kissing on my cheeks, as if they were

conveying your messages to me. 

 

 

Alone

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Lonely me walking in the darkest paths of my life

judged and mistook by others

the eyes looked at me in question 

as if I did the life’s greatest crime for being alone

All I wanted to was to live freely

without being vague

I was clean like the wind 

pure like a rain drop

yet everyone tried to paint me as they liked

It was not easy to live among the people who

always looked at me as if I were a fallen woman

yet I put my head straight and walked towards my dreams

being alone was not a crime

as my dreams were never shattered

it was my aspiration that led me up to where I am now

To dream was my sin

To set my wings was my crime

yet I decided to walk away for good

I was never a head-turner, but being alone 

gained attention to me 

which was never the good one 

I never strayed away for my goals

my path was clear until I decided to turn down the evils

I resolved that life was not easy when we choose to ramble.

 

 

 

Loneliness- the key to your soul

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The silence was filled up in the air.

She moved out of the bed, slowly floating in the darkness, her breaths were controlled.

She took each step out of the bed with caution, she freezes her anklets and her bangles, so that none make a move before she thinks. She kept a pillow beside her adorable kids to make them feel better.

Slowly moving to the quieter music of the night, where she could hear only the buzzing of vehicles from the distant roads and some honks. It was not a peaceful night, though, she could feel the breeze that was brushing her hair and the coldness under her nose.

It was the time, the time she loved being lonely her ‘me time’.

There was a time when she hated loneliness, she felt the need for some oxygen then. It was the time when she felt she was horrified by being alone and her thoughts were crumbled, diverted and she felt lost.

And now she fell in love with the loneliness, the vacant spaces never bothered her. She opened up the window, gazing the early morning sky, succumbing the freshness in the air. She wanted to be free from all the tangles, set herself ready for the whole day. She felt the breeze caressing her, comforting her as if nature was fondling her.

She let herself loose, in nature, feel the romance of nature.She gulped in a large volume of air, feeling the need to be full early morning.

The moment of silence was speaking more than words could.

She felt better, with a good conversation to her heart. She enjoyed it.

Loniless was never creepy again. She was in love with it.She wanted these quiet moments every day to feel better and stronger. The more she missed talking to herself, the more she complicated things.

There is none better than yourself to talk to at times.

A day – not at all apt for me

From morning , in a hurry burry I finished all the household work, which anyways I have to finish before my kid is off to school. With a severe toothache and headache ,I slept a lot yesterday, yet morning was not fresh enough as I thought it would be.

As I was wrapping up every work in the kitchen, my younger one woke up and came to me. But to her surprise, her mom was too busy to even say a ” good morning to her” . Later for which I felt bad too. Yet the complaining and rush kept on going till , I some way managed to finish up the packings and getting them ready for school.

I ran and to my surprise, the bus was quite early and waiting for us there, which is most of the times the other way round. As soon as I came back home after dropping her to school, I was damn tired, and the breakfast not even inviting to me, since I made Upma which was never enough reaching the standards of my mom’s cooking. For a moment I missed her a lot.

Still ,hunger is not a compromising part ,hence I ate what was left over. Finally, as I sat there wondering what to do, even thought I have lot many pending things to do .In such thoughts I wondered my mind away and was lost in front of the TV , even though I was not watching much, and started looking into the pages of my FB, yet found nothing interesting much.

In the end, I just wanted my younger one to sleep so that I could take a nap too . Not to my surprise, she was full of energy and not ready to sleep. ( AT that moment I thought I could have sent her to school, anyways too late to think).

The moment I asked her to sleep after lunch, she will start playing around even if she is damn sleepy. Finally, when I convinced her to bed, she wanted to go to the toilet, and that two times. At last, I was almost lost- no patience, all sleepy and tired. I told her am off to sleep.

Again she came and lied down beside me, jumping from one side to the other,doing what not to make me irritated. Finally an hour back she slept and not for surprise – AM WIDE AWAKE!!

Why is it that when we want something it never comes to us, and when it happens, we are even least bothered about it?

Interesting but the fact. May be I need to convince myself at times and learn to accept the things as it comes rather than demanding for them. I guess this is a very common situation in anyone’s life. I remember as a kid , I used to fight with my brother for the remote to watch movies and songs while he had some weird tastes. But now when am all alone ,I seriously don’t have any thing to watch. Sarcasm !