As I drowned


As I closed  my eyes

I filled myself with darkness

the darkness that hid my feelings

I locked them up in my world

the world unseen

I dare not open my eyes

scared with the thought

to let know the world outside of what I felt

yet my darkness could betray anyone

even if the eyes were shut

my eyes bled

trying to push me to my limits

hard it was, yet I held myself clung to the truth

the truth about me

hiding away the real me

soaking myself in the black ocean

letting me drown all by myself into the deepest portion

I could feel the coldness in the depth

the coldness that could freeze me to death.