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Embrace me ….

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I wish I could hold you close to myself

I wish I could control you

Whenever I want you, you run away from me

Whenever I wish you never existed, you make me wait

As I want to grab you, you slip away from my hands

As I wish to loosen you, you hold a grip in my hands

You test my patience

You test my attitude

You test my love

You test my yearning

I wish it was easy to tame you

I wish to embrace however you are

Yet, you make it impossible for me

you smile at me while giving me surprises

you shut your eyes, as you give me sorrows after all the wait

you remain silent, when there is a need for you yet you don’t want to turn up

I get angry with you, I get irritated with you

yet you remain the same

pulsating up my patience at times

at times giving me the moments that I treasure the most

at times the pain that I need to carry the burden forever

I wonder how you are so much like this

even if I might turn you off or on, you are the same

O!! my dear time

Why you behave so weird….?

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Desperate need to come back

When there is a long gap in anything you have been doing and then stopped doing those , there comes a moment of desperation to do it.

It’s is not just work – but everything.

Past few weeks as I was talking to many women who shared similar thoughts to mine , I understood that we all were thinking alike, the desperation , the need to be something or someone. That’s on everyone’s mind , but to get through that it is quite difficult but not impossible. So never loose heart.

We all have some kind of responsibility in life ,which how much ever we turned down, we will end up doing . If I see my home messy, I will clean ones when am in desperation to clean. (which is hardly ever) . The only thing we need to have is confidence and a belief in yourself.

Never let your depression overshadows your mind . For women who too ka break for child care and another family responsibility, be proud that you have done it and it was a right decision. Never let the thoughts of burden cloud your mind.

It is not easy.

But again for us ,it is not difficult too.

Maybe for few years your life is revolving around the lil ones or your loved ones, that means you are not wasting your life- you are the most important person in their life .Be it a child or an elderly.

For me , my kids are my world and am happy that I devoted my time to them, learning a lot from them.

Be proud moms for you are what you are born to be and you will be what you should be and want to be, give time and have patience.

teaching life

AS of now only thing that  is scaring me, my out of patience behaviour.

There are many things we need to keep a check in our behaviour towards kids as well as others around us. The main chapter of parenting is that, we cannot teach our kids to be like someone ,which we ourself cannot depict to them.

We always end up showing them the most vulnerable part of ours. Its easy for our kids to learn from what we show other than, through our long lectures , to them . We are letting them learn , about being the real human, but at times we want them to be the entire opposite to how we react . 

I show them my angry side, loving side, playful side, powerful style and many more. which comes out of me uncontrollably. I am showing them , thats life. Sometimes when am dealing with some impossible persons , whom I seriously don’t want to talk ever , or being a part of anything, which am not at all interested , I am show them , am just happy, and not my uncomfortable part. 

Being human is very difficult, we have to deal with many people and things ,and sometimes, we are forced to be what we are not, just to be accepted and considered. I do not want to be like that, but , when we count on others happiness , we just do it. Sometimes these sacrifices are always worthy and teach us many lessons. 

Life is a test , for which we do not have any preparations, and people whom we are dealing with are questions, which by reading  innumerable times also , we cannot understand. 

Hope my kids learn in quite well ,from this vulnerable mom.