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Lost in expectations

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I wondered once,

what my expectations were;

when I realised, I was never the one to do it,

as I was the one expected from;

burdened in those thoughts,

shattering my every step I climbed

I fell away

half the way;

unable to endure the pain ;

I decided to be suicidal;

which again, the death never expected me to be the one to accompany;

again I trailed in life ;

like a lost boat in the grand canyon ;

sailing as the wind bothered to push me along.

Confronting the “NOT” ME

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You cast a shadow over my thoughts

envisaging a story of your own,

portraying me to be someone you desired

numbing my veins, to inject it into me

Camouflaged by your emotions,

I was swimming in those cloudy areas of your imagination

stranded one day, when the fog cleared

I realised ” It wasn’t me, here”

As if lost in the darkness,

enchanted by the charms, I drove into a foggy night

awakening from the dreams, I never designed

I decided to walk away

To be just who I was. 

 

The moment he left ….she was lost

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Her wait has begun

the moment he leaves …she waits for the next time

the time to be with him

her eyes lay on the path, where he walks to her

her moments are captured by the wandering thoughts

she craves for his presence

the winds carry the messages to him

the world conveys the wait she does

even if her eyes drift away from the path, overlooking the nature

wondering whether he knows that she is waiting

like a nomad, he moves, yet she knew that he would be with her one day

the fragrance of his presence still lingers around her body

her raging thoughts were untamed and disengaged

she felt as if her mind was nomadic

several came to conquer her mind

yet none could replace him

her eyes told the unbound love she had for him

she lay armed with her thoughts, never letting the horizon slid away from her vision

She chained her heart to never let any emotions drive away

She was deadlier than any weapon

her war was with the time

her war was with the promise that will be shattered

yet he kept his promise.

after the long wait….

he arrived for her

she knew her love was strong enough to hold him back

he embraced her

bewildered by the endurance she possessed

all her pain vanquished as he held her in his arms

Her wait dissipated …

His wait for true love …

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All he wanted was her

in his dreams, in his life, and in his arms

she did not betray him

she did not walk away from him

she was his dream, the dream he always wanted to live for

Yet, the pain was more than he could bare

little did he realize that life was playing a game with him

losing her even when they could unite was irritating him to the core

he still has her, yet she was far beyond his reach

it was like, he knew she was just his, yet she cannot be

the agony was more than betrayal

the helplessness killed him inside every moment

the moment he sees her, he held her closer to him, as if he has never lost her

the time they shared were the most memorable ones

the life he wished to live with her remained a dream

even in pain, he loved her the most

their love was unique, he knew that

all he could do was- love her

which he did to the core of his heart

their mere existence was to love each other

he knew he cannot be with her, yet he knew she cannot be anyone else’s .

their love was magical, yet a utopian tale for others

he felt being the luckiest man when she comforted him with much pleasure and joy

he felt she was the one made for him

he wanted to share his life with her

he wanted to fall into sleep on her lap

he wanted to look in her eyes and dream a life together

he wanted her shoulder to cry on

he wanted her hands to caress his soul

he wanted her to be his wife and walk along with him in every hurdle

Yet, the game, the universe played with them was unfair

still, he felt, that his deep wait was answered with her arrival in his life

he knew they detoured from their  souls once,  yet they were never lost 

as they united 

He thanked for every moment he was with her and loved her to the core

his heart could bear …

She was chained …

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The busy roads

Vehicles running past here and there

everyone busy in mobiles or reading newspapers

the world around her was revolving faster

faster than her heart beat

every second flashed through

the time was ticking quickly

she wanted to hold a second in her hand

and sweep through every microsecond in it

living through the moments

she wished she could live every second with him

looking into his eyes, feeling his warmth

forget the rushing world around them

just them in the whole world

where they could love and be one again

none has time, even when they can find time

she battled among the loneliness and the crowded world

emotions caused a huge shadow where she resisted herself to be one among the crowd

she was all alone, even when thousands were holding her hands

she thought it was her inner self, pulling her away from everything around her

she smiled hiding her tears, battling with the tears rolling out of her eyes

the feelings were crushed under the feets of others

who knew her, but never realized her dreams

she dreamt of running away throwing away all the shackles of emotions

but the chains were stronger, that it wounded her soul, more than her body

the wounds never healed, it bled and bled enough that she forgot the pain

as her body was lost in the space

She looked out of the window for the hope

a hope that let her live the afflictions

the agony of being alive till the hope arrives one day to revive her

her soul waited for the moment to liberate from her tortured mortal

she stayed up all along with contemplation.