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The Window

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As I sat near the window

browsing the outside world

from the small browser I had – my window

the world was unique from there

I never knew that I would fall in love with that small opening

in the mornings, the window opens me up to the bright sunlight

in the night it brings me the public that is off to sleep

and it will be just me and the night

the night ..with all it beauty

overlapping my thoughts

the window became the world to me

the four borders encapsulating a beautiful world in it

as if my window was the painting on my wall

which changes its pictures daily

it had sorrow, love, pain and happiness

every colorful was life captured in it

and gifted to me

As I sat and watched it forever

penning down my thoughts as I see them

hoping that one day I would be a picture in it too

the window showed me different phases of life

the hardworking, the idle, the old, the young and the newborns  

every individual had a story to tell.

As she drifted into deep sleep

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Her eyes were slipping into a deep sleep

yet her mind was not resting

she wanted to play again

she wanted to be awake, even when her eyes cheated her

by dozing off while she tried to keep it awake

she was looking at her heart that lay close to her

the one she had given a life out of her

the one she nurtured forever in her womb for months

the one she wanted to be in her arms

she watched as her Lil one was playing with her hair and the little dolls she had cuddled

she watched and watched as her eyes were dripping into sleep

yet she woke up to admire the love on earth that was for her

in between as she admired her, her Lil baby fondled her cheeks and gave her a kiss

she was flattered and floating in the air, with all the love she showers on her

there is nothing more beautiful than the love of a mom and baby.

Autumn blooms

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It was the beautiful season of the year – Autumn.

The time when the trees shed their leaves and stand up straight ready to welcome the white snowy coats to cover them. The amazingly beautiful park was covered with orange, red, yellow color leaves – she walked and picked them to feel the beauty. Everything around her was alluring. She didn’t know where to look and where to click. She wished she could gather all this beauty in her heart and cherish it forever.

It was indeed difficult.

The combination of multi-colored trees and the green grass almost swept her mind off. She walked and walked along the path, cherishing the moments she has soaking with this beauty. The weather was cold and she was trying to warm her up in her jackets. The wind was tickling her soft fingers, giving little cold as it goes by. She kept her hands inside her pockets and walked past the park, then to bridge that connects to her home.

As she reached one-fourth of the bridge, she couldn’t take her eyes off the beauty around. She stood there, watching the ripples in the water and the spectacular beauty around her. The soft breeze was pampering her as if she was a feather floating along the wind. 

She stood there lost in her thoughts for a while.

Time swept by, she never knew. In the end, she could see it was the sun setting and warning her it is getting darker soon. In the bright redness of the setting sun, the autumn flowers were impeccable. The mixture of redness was soaking in the atmosphere. She watched the sun set down for his good night sleep while walking up to her home.

As soon as she reached it was dark and everything was same everywhere, overshadowed by the night sky, big black blankets covering up the whole world. 

She finished her chores and climbed up to her cozy bed to feel snuggled in the cold night.She craved for warmth and love. She wrapped her up in the blankets and with the beautiful dream in her eyes slept to the melody played by the breeze in her ears. She slept peacefully to open up her eye to another beautiful day in her life. 

I cannot have enough of your time MOM

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The nights ,where I could cuddle near you, sleep and hug you keeping my legs over you and enjoy a warm sleep.
The soft touch of your caring hands that shower enough blessing for me to live forever.
The way you talk, I love your company more than anyone.
The way you cook and feed me ,even now.
The way you complain that I have not done enough , but on the other side, without me knowing, saying all good things about me.
The way you care and nurture me and now my kids.
The way you bring in and shower all the goodies to my kids whenever you come.
The longing I see in my kid’s eyes ,for you to come and be with them. The way you make my home a heaven.

The way you give company for my loneliness.

The list is endless.

I can never have enough of your time. I am greedy . I need more always.

We fight ,we argue and we have a difference of opinions , but you are my mother, the most treasured gift of my life. In the end of all arguing ,you can find me doing always what you wished for, and I am sure you make right choices for me.

Now since am away from you, the time and the gap kills me, I just wanted to be home and be in your presence .Even though we fight hours and for everything , my life without you is like trees without the sunshine.

I get jealous of others who have their mom near, but even being miles away, you are always with me. The thousand times I call to disturb you , I know it never bothers you because you are used to it. Your sound , your message are enough helping me out in most of the times.

I love the way you complain that I call hundred times a day. And when I don’t call, the immediate call I get, which I answer with a naughty smile and twinkle in my eyes , is all my love for my mom, who loves me the most in the world.

Every day and every minute make me feel I need my mom always and forever.

Last day of her playschool

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Sitting next to my daughter who is asleep , taking a  nap after her last day at school , looking over to all the boxes which I have to fill in , before travelling , am not sure what emotions am going through.

I still remember her first day at school , even then I was crying and when she was leaving her school I was almost crying. May be am being silly as always. Is being tooo emotional a problem , I don’t know but I can’t help it.

I had a tough time , when I was packing all sweets for lovely friends in her school , as my lil one don’t know why she will be giving her friends sweets , the pain of her not realizing that she is saying ‘bye-bye’ to her friends made me cry , but that is life . I know so many good things are in store for her life waiting for her ,and these small things in life , may not matter her in the long run.

As I see her peacefully sleeping , I could memorize all her lovely days and the changes she had gone through since she joined her school.  Things change , places change , but memories live for ever . Am not sure how much she might remember about her days here, but of course she might not forget many at least till she gets another set of  friends and teachers.

A life-long blessing for kids is to fill them with warm memories and later on they become treasures in their heart to live out the tougher days in life.